Under the Weather

 Well, yesterday didn't go as planned like most days *lol*.  I got around in the morning and headed to work .  By 9:00 I had literally ran to the bathroom 4 times - my stomach was turning, I was light headed and I had had enough.  So I packed up and came home.  I spent the day watching TV - I did finish up some laundry but that was about it .  I'm feeling better this morning.  Hoping I make it thru the day .. 

Health Update - Today I weighed in at 210 .. My goal weight is 160 and my first real goal is to get out of the 200's .  I know when I eat clean (no junk) - I feel so much  better, the hotflashes subside and I sleep so much better so WHY oh WHY can't I just walk away from it all.  I also know I'm an emotional eater.. If I'm happy- I eat,  If I'm sad - I eat, If I'm depressed - I eat , If I'm sick I eat ... I know I need to change this and this is the hardest part - CHANGE and repetition.  

We are taking the new  boat out to get a few more hours on the engine.  We are fishing in a Jack N Jill tournament on Banks Lake and Paul knows he will not let any one pass us on blast off *lol*.. 

Here's to a great day ...

How hard can it be to change at the age of 56 *LOL*

 Here I go again *lol*  If I looked back at how many times I've started to blog, started a journal , started weight loss journey.  I laugh at myself.  I'm good at starting but I can't quite figure out how to continue. I'm analyzing me today.  I look back when I was successful at weight loss or blogging or journaling or crafting - I had little time for myself and I made it work .. I figured out when I could walk - I'd shut the bedroom door and do my exercises - I had no machines - life was so stressful back then.  When I didn't have a place to craft - I made it work - I used the kitchen - I slept in a twin so I could have a space in my bedroom that I shared with Elijah when he was a baby. And now I'm at a point in my life and I'm so blessed that  I can do what ever I want when ever I want and however I want and I don't do it.  I have every craft tool you would ever need,  I have  a great craft  room. We have the best exercise equipment and I still don't do it .. I'm one interesting creature - If I have to work for it and it's an inconvenience, I'll make it happen but if it's right in front of me Nope..   Well I'm hoping today I can start to change that. 

Week of July 18th goals - 

Living Healthier -  a) Meal plan  b) MORE WATER  c) 30 mins of walking or something daily

Crafting - 1 hour set aside for crafting - Paul goes to sleep no later than 8:00  - it shouldn't be a problem

Blogging / Journaling - 15 mins a day 

House - Pick one thing a week to focus on -

Limit - Social Media Time - It has taken over my life -  30 mins am  - 30 mins lunch - 30 mins after work - 30 mins before bed  - That should be more than enough .. 

I started a new book called - "Willpower doesn't work " - I want to read 15- 30 mins a day

Retirement Planning - Trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life *lol* - My job is iffy - Do I want to just push thru and go on unemployment for a bit -  Do I want to sub as a para at the school - I can pick an choose when I want to work -  Paul and I paid all our bills off just in case things went south - but we like to play - I know I won't  make the money I make now and I'm ok with it because I won't have the headaches I have now.  The more you make the more the stress you have. I think I'm ready to flip burgers again - do my job go home and not stress :) 

I'm gonna stop now because we all know the list can go on and on but the more we add on the less chance it's gonna be accomplished ..